Parallels

Chalked up, the distance the line runs
Parallel; I find your outline next
City streets found deserted in the city that never sleeps
I lost you in sequence,
And as I heard the bullets going by,
I rushed in to save you
Sirens wailing while the crowd gathers
They don’t even know our names,
But they stare at our fates
Wondering if they know our face
Pushed back, we are held back from line
These liars never heard a thing
And the man who got away
Painted us in signs screaming they will never forget,
But the children who lived won’t know any different
All I wanted to do was keep you here
But we were meant to live different lives after all
I lost you in distance
Just because you can’t see something doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist
And I’ve always believed in this

In Another Space

She dreams of stars and asteroids,
wonders how many of them exist
what if there is life somewhere else?
else wise, we only know of ourselves
is there any more like ours?
out in the infinite,
there must be something;
that is the only thing she thinks about
there; a single star opens her eyes
must it be the brightest?
be it for rockets or for kites,
another dreamer is looking at the sky
billion light years, could we ever get there?
worlds like ours must be trying to find us
And rockets get stuck in our atmosphere
though we have found ways to escape
she thinks of places that no one has seen;
sees the clouds and says the sun is out
the clouds are never in her way
stars, she says, are someone else’s star
she believes in worlds I’ve never been,
wants the closest heavens;
her name they’ll never forget,
own the stars, she says tonight
rocket ships fly through time and space,
so come with me and leave this place;
some people don’t ever wonder;
day ends with night, when the sky is out
she asks if planets are close like the moon;
might she ever get to see the stars;
get a closer look at someone’s world
a million more might exist
chance to see what else exists;
to feel in love with another galaxy,
touch another star
the clouds will have to thicken;
moon light always shine through

Lighthouse

 

Razors cross across our face,
Chained to the desire to be clean;
To relive floating towards emptiness,
The water never cooperated
Hands cross our hearts
Of hopes crossing our tides.
Those looking for openness freezing;
Who could save such hopeless souls?
Never again, the ship sunk below the surface,
Thought the unsinkable banners meant forever
They never meant a word that was said,
Would we break looking for the sea?
Be it the waves that push us together
Free from the lights searching for our lost souls;
And again we laid upon a broken bed of needles
We fought to hold in our blood,
Lied about never being dead,
About ever facing needles to turn our canvas;
Our lighthouse felt the water kissing its facade,
Bleeding out from our hearts;
Hearts that were never quite fixed

Deaf Tones (Incomplete)

You used to listen to every word I’d say
And then like an unwinding spring
You’d just keep pushing away
Will we walk until the sidewalk ends?
Could we call a cab?
I’d fall in love just every night
Just to have you back
You used to listen to every word I’d say
But I woke up
And we ended it today
You used to be here
But you just up and left
You used to love me
But that all went away
So if you see me today
Forget all we used to be

The River (Incomplete)

‚ÄčI fell in love with the sound of the river
So I swam in love with the current pushing me away
I just wanted to fall in love,
I loved the sound of it all, didn’t I?
I was so far away before I found rock bottom
And through the trees all I could see was tunnels
To find the truth,
Dig deeper; well below the surface
I heard you were lovely
But I never thought you would love me,
I heard your songs,
So I dove in

Take Away

Challenge me to live alone, to operate
But you said that I could take away today
To live surrounded by boxes as windows
And everything will have a silent sound

Take me back to when I was myself again,
To live alone with clocks,
Towers above us can’t reside in brick walls
And I screamed in the halls of an empty home

Washed ashore, three hours ago
Choked by the salt in the water,
I forgot to check in with my ego
But I was walking alone in the sand, with you

Take me back to when I was alone again,
To live among walls,
The streets are above us
And I screamed for a happy home

Take away the Chicago streets,
We needed space from Minnesota

In Your Absence (version 2)

In Your Absence

In the coldest corners,
Our minds venture ways
Blame always carries hate

Now you’ve left the world in search of somewhere new
Hoping to find that there may be another you

We wait as long as we are told,
Carried away
We’ve gotten too old

Exposed,
Cold lies to the truth
A forgotten face,
Forgot how to live in this broken place

Halls trace my bitterness,
Sleep still haunts me

I’ve become the lion in the cage,
As I’m surrounded,
Surrender
Forgot how to leave this broken place

In your absence,
I’ve grown apart from myself
(I don’t even blame you anymore)
I’ve looked back at the man in the mirror
But he doesn’t look the same way

In your absence I’ve found the silence deafening
How many words never wee said after all
How could she ever know?
That I was the reason that you had to go

Stockholm,
I’m not locking you up
But I’m locking down

Stockholm,
I’m lost without your guide
I’m still stuck here trying to find

I fall in love with every stranger I see now
Thinking that they will always be the ones to hurt me
Hoping that the ones I know will never be the ones to go

A place in the world,
I’ve buried my fears of living through self control
Holes of our halves

And I think I’m the crazy one

In your absence,
I’ve finally become fond of myself again
In this void,
I’ve finally found myself again
Living in the fear of never seeing you again

And how somehow that would hurt less

But in your absence
I’ve grown fonder,
I’ve gone longer,
Become a better man
And a better father
I gave myself another chance
Standing strong at a taller stance
Forgiven myself and forgiven others

In your absence I’ve become lost again
But I found my way up,
And I let go of the pictures of you
I’ve let go of the the things that we had

For me it wasn’t easy
Because of you, I’ve become me

In your absence my heart has grown cold
The cage it sits in no longer is it’s protection
As love is no longer the intention

How many times will it beat?
Will it serve a new life on the street?
As the clowns look down and see that it always wasn’t me

In your absence,
I’ve become a different monster,
From being deranged to being silent
Void of an open voice

As I sit in my wonders,
I cry in curiosity
Pretending to know that I ever knew
Exactly who you are

In Your Absence

In your absence,
I’ve finally become fond of myself again

In Your Absence

A place in the heart,
May forever be
A place where our love was
All of the nights gone by won’t be the forgotten ones

Exposed,
Cold lies to the truth
A forgotten face,
Forgot how to live in this broken place

Halls trace my bitterness,
Sleep still haunts me

I’ve become the lion in the cage,
As I’m surrounded,
Surrender
Forgot how to leave this broken place

In your absence,
I’ve grown apart from myself
I don’t even blame you anymore

In your absence I’ve found the silence deafening
How could she ever know?
That I was the reason that you had to go

Stockholm,
I’m not locking you up
But I’m locking down

I fall in love with every stranger I see now
Thinking that they will always be the ones to hurt me
Hoping that the ones I know will never be the ones to go

A place in the world,
I’ve buried my fears of living through self control
Holes of our halves

And I think I’m the crazy one

In your absence,
I’ve finally become fond of myself again
In this void,
I’ve finally found myself again
Living in the fear of never seeing you again

And how somehow that would hurt less

But in your absence
I’ve grown fonder,
I’ve gone longer,
Become a better man
And a better father
I gave myself another chance
Standing strong at a taller stance
Forgiven myself and forgiven others

In your absence I’ve become lost again
But I found my way up,
And I let go of the pictures of you
I’ve let go of the the things that we had

For me it wasn’t easy
Because of you, I’ve become me

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I walked these streets,
Looking for the cracks I tripped on as a kid
To find it’s all been replaced
It’s what we’ve been moving on

Unfamiliar sounds of ghosts
I said I was never scared,
Never free
Body plays host

I don’t recognize you anymore
Now I just see a shadow, with a frame that has become shallow,
of the person I thought I knew

Are we all still the same?
Or have we become two totally different people?
Save me the sunset
I want to see the other side of the world

From fear I see the trees that are no longer
We carved our way through the streets
To find they’ve all been replaced
Not even close to home

Are we still the same?
Do you ever feel this way?
Cause I’d save the sunset, for you

I want to see the other side of the world,
So hold on tight because we’re gonna go

And if you’re wondering, I’m waiting for you

While They’re Looking

She doesn’t see past his sun bright eyes,
The mirror in all reflections shines the light
So don’t tell her why I’m passing by
The winter snows I chase in the night

Miracles aren’t supposed to just happen,
Explain to me why you are my lesson
So don’t find the fog in the bay,
These winter showers won’t make us stay

Do everything you can while they’re looking,
Because you’ll find that nothing lasts forever
And if promises meant anything,
Than you would have stayed

She hears the words through ricochet
And feels the things that you meant to say
You’ll never be the man you said you’d be
But you’ll always be better off than me

Smile like the dentists won’t remove your lungs
Do everything you can while you sit in the chair
These falling leaves don’t mean anything
They never meant anything to me

She doesn’t see past his cold hands,
The reflection in the hall reminded her to breathe,
So don’t tell her why I can’t stand
The summer rain is making me leave

Do everything you can while they’re looking
Because someday they’ll be too far away,
And if promises meant anything,
Than you would stay